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Paranoia

People always call me a "worry wart" or "praning/paranoid"  And by definition ...Paranoia is a thought process believed to be heavily influenced by anxiety or fear, often to the point of irrationality and delusion. When in a middle of a conversation through text message or call.. it cuts off and the person could not be contacted anymore.... I would try to text and text and call and call that person and even try to get the exact location of that person because I need to see for myself if the person or friend is okay.... Reason behind? September 29,2006 I was suppose to meet my "ex-bestfriend" for a coffee time in smallville ...I was still taking my nursing course in IDC back then...Our meeting place was in Mcdonalds west ave. I also called up my other bestfriend because we're just buildings apart from her school so we waited for her there... it was her lunch break so she just accompanied me till "ex-bestfriend" arrives....  I ca

IN YOUR EYES... LOST IN YOUR EYES...

"In your eyes... Lost in your eyes" titles of love songs which are my favorites as well... but what is it in one  person's eyes that makes one fall in love? If we check the exact definition of it.. eyes  are organs that detect light, and convert it to electro-chemical impulses in neurons... accdg. kay wiki... But if you ask me... the eyes of ones persons holds everything... because what we can't say.. that eyes have seen already so we can't keep anything from it ... for example... If a person lies... you can tell by the twitching of their eye... If ones in love with a person you can see the blooming eyes, devious eyes..the ones set to kill or in rage and yes, even models.. you can encounter what they call "smiling with your eyes". It's really interesting ... feelings could be involved with the look of an eye... like the famous term.. "love at first sight" I so love that... I don't even know if that's still applicable for othe

Runaway? or Facing new problems?

Since I discovered I was to be a rebel child because of all the problems that I encountered in such a young age I was fund of running away from my problems.... The first was when I ran away after me and my mom confronted my father from a certain problem.... I stayed in my friends house for 2 days ..I felt so confused that time that I even brought my birth certificate and all papers needed to get a job and I was to young then...how would I know? my dad left our house the afternoon of the confrontation so I decided to head back home..When I got back he left me a letter apologizing on what he had and almost done towards me and my mom...but the downside is... we never saw him for 7 months after their one on one confrontation... Second was I was fund of being an out of school youth when I first quit college back at 2007... I was nagged by my mother everyday so I decided to leave the house with several clothing only...It lasted for a month and a half... August to September to be exact.

They are T-Mobile.... Count on them

October 26,2009 I was hired as an Agent in a call center company... I was with Wave 25-8 .... we were the best wave of all... there were originally... 200+ agents in wave 25 alone and we were the last group.. but we never settled for the last but always the first place in getting awards and all.... anyway... that's when I met my loud mouth soon to be Best friend...  Demmy Francis.he was wearing his white shirt with red and blue print.. Loud mouth...he never wants to be known.. he was my prospect before because he never admits what he is so It came to a point that I wanted to get him drunk to make use of him...^^ but we ended up best of friends  he's always there to shake me to reality and shout just to realize i've done something wrong...always defends me and always there but not these days because of school and work and that I'm proud of him. we became team mates when we reached the floor under our beloved Boss Lyndon(the only supervisor we I'm considering)....

cold as ice

In the past I was labeled as the Ice Queen..because I was so hurt so deeply....It came to a point that I chose to forget about love...until I met him...I found love ones again... but is he my counter part? That's how I define him...  I never really knew him... until now... what is it with him that makes my knees weak? What does he have against me? a voodoo doll?a love potion? or I was just really struck by cupids arrow... he's not the total package but for me he's perfect... My friend even told me... "i'm warning you... don't love him deeply... coz he's a player.. he'll just hurt you..." and even to the point of saying .." why don'y you try having sex with him..maybe that's just what you wanted?" well that's not my style... and i'm never after sex when i love or like someone... I would wait ..then we can do what we want with each other... He's saying that he can't take care of a puppy...let alone a person...

I love you no matter what,,,

Usually when you say "i love you" to a person,your friend, partner, family member or new love... you always get random answers...  "i love you..i love you too...i love you?..or i love you too?" Because..you see.. it's never the things you say.. it's how you say it... Being in love for people with personalities like mine is precious..rare... important...But the question still remains.. am I really in love?infatuated? or playing dumb? I point a certain scenario... My first boyfriend ever... I was lonely after a scary feud.. I was at mo2 aquarium then...alone while my friends were dancing elsewhere... he came to me..gave me a pat in the back and said.." hey... are you drunk or being emo?" I'm supposed to look at him with glaring eyes but when my eyes looked at his... I felt connected to him as if there was an electricity connecting his eyes to mine... and we just stared at each other.. unaware that it was 2 mins already and for us... it wa

In my 23 years of existence...

A friend once told me... "you know what? you have lots of realization friend!It's  because I'm a person who learns new things everyday ... facing different problems and situation everyday makes you learn how to cope up or deal with it... Things happen for a reason so you really have to deal with it no matter how hard it could get...  I'm the kind of person that is always available when a friend is in need... I'd forget my work or whatever i'm doing that is less important just to aid a friend... many people came and went away in my life but i'm still hanging on ... If someone leaves you it does not mean he or she does not care.. it is because both of you needs to grow... Being  in my world is like a jungle... there's always a predator that hides beneath the bushes.. waiting to eat your flesh... but they can't afford to do so because of my friends..they always defend me with or without my presence... I'm a friend oriented person and as bad as