Jhianvon's Adventures!

day 5...I just cant take it anymore! my friends wants me to bring back my facebook and so do I...I miss facebook and mhy friends that can only be communicated through facebook... I'll be reactivating my facebook today but will be less visible coz I still want to take care of my blog.. fans or none^^ but you have to agree..especially for people who knows me too well... it's like a miracle that I survived not having facebook or twitter for 5 straight days!^^

4th day...   still craving for facebook but less for the reason why I deactivated it...been on a 2 straight night out with my new found friends... love it! I have to be honest.. I haven't forgotten him yet.. but I'm proud to so ..I don't love him anymore...theirs just simple things that makes me remember him..like his scent.. the songs he sang... but enough about him... how the hell could I move on If even in y blog it's still all about him... so let me tell you a story about this new gay guy..hahahah first so him... in the pantry..his cute firm ass and eyes... he's really not that good looking but I'm just really in to loud mouths...anyway... I find him cute ..at first I was just observing him...  when he's at training... it's all about him... some found him irritating.. but for me I enjoyed seeing him doing his what he does best... being perky...  before we had our girls night out last Thursday ..we were together in the van and he was all over the

I'll be keeping this short coz ..I still have hang over^^ start of day... poverty...just the day before salary... BDO..I always find ways^^ prorates...nosebleed went out with the girls... go mart...emperador and coke... mo2 ice... 2 adios mother fucker... super dance^^ grabbed a dick... fed the ducks... went home.. day ended with more feeding of the ducks^^ hang over!!^^

day 2... still tempted.... I honestly miss Facebook.... how would I know my friends current status or dramas? but still being strong and standing by my commitment ... it's very hard... I'm still tempted in checking how he's doing... hearing the "how to save a life" music in the cab earlier... I'm really wishing him all the happiness he deserves... This day at work was quite steamy... this know it all but call center virgin beeyotch was all over our training room..lashing her unethical and "squateric" attitude..it started after the role play for call simulations... they jined our room since our log-ins was not yet modified and we needed to share their logins... one of my teamates gave a grammatical feedback about the ssn vs the last 4 of the socials statement and this girl was going crazy over her reaction.... coming from this unfortunate looking bitch who seems to know it all but can't even fix her own style in life.... I had tp stand up for my

Day 1…so far so good.. it has been 18 hours since I deactivated my facebook account… being inlove with this person for months had made me decide in doing this because I can’t seem to delete him from my friends list …. Doing this was so difficult since iv’e been feeding myself in facebook since it started… all my friends. Families and even partners are in my facebook account and all those over 400 facebook friends I’m acquainted with … and it’s all my median of communication from all the people iv’e known all throughout the world… One of the reasons why I wanted to deactivate my Facebook account temporarily is because I wanted to isolate myself from all the drama that Facebook has given me and the people around me… Second… I wanted to totally move on from this specific person whom I loved but can’t love me in return…I wasn’t asking much. Just for him to acknowledge that I am loving him. He wanted me to throw away my feelings for him which I didn’t like… call it generically martyr b

For years Iv'e been searching for the right person..the right partner to be with..I tried everything... signing up in gay social networks...going to bars every night..even showed off my wild dancing just to catch attention... I was too young...naive... on the verge of desperation... The Love vs Infatuation always kicks in ..when I think I found "the right one"...It always ends up to be false alarms..They usually say  "just friends" or "forget me"... Hopeless romantic..that's what I am..I still believe in soul mates and serendipity.. But why am I searching?  Because I was never given proper love and attention growing up.. So when I find that person that my heart chooses.. I'd give all my love and attention... Selfish ain't it? but that's what I want.. I would usually fall for guys which I consider my counter part ... the aspect of yin and yang and all...only 2 persons loved me for who I am and some just fell just fell in love b

Summer of 2006... The season of IRC chatters... I had the weirdest thought that I would find the perfect partner in chatrooms like these... G4m was also very hot that year... (well I'm just saying that because that's the year I started chatting online^^) Anyway... I had this chat mate named "bratie" in one of the chatrooms and the usual .. we traded G4m accounts.. he asked for my stats and number and ofcourse...Friendster... We texted a lot even traded MMS several times... then April 21,2006 he made a text brigade for a grand EB with all his friends and text/chat mates at mo2 aquarium 9pm...  Everybody's there..the hot and the not was there but "bratie" he never cared..just as long as he makes lots of friends ... he's the kind of person that would not judge based on physical looks... And well it took us several months before the "close friend" declaration happened...  On that night.. I also met my all time crush... "dotty" he

Nowadays...beauty is still  defined as skin deep by many shallow individuals... call me old fashioned but for me the essence of being beautiful counts through each individuals attitude or personality... I will only consider you beautiful if you treat others well...I'll never care if your pretty or handsome just as long as you know how to handle yourself in a certain scenario... Just like in beauty pageants ... the biggest points that you can earn is in the Q & A...If your answer includes the famous "world peace" there's always a chance of winning the crown... For years I have encountered different kinds of attitudes from friends and family and even partners..I'll be stating three experiences on what true beauty means...  I had this Girl best friend since kindergarten ...shes a pretty girl... always the apple of the eye of boys and teachers... shes almost perfect...but knowing her for 11 years...shes nothing without that pretty face... I always cover

People always call me a "worry wart" or "praning/paranoid"  And by definition ...Paranoia is a thought process believed to be heavily influenced by anxiety or fear, often to the point of irrationality and delusion. When in a middle of a conversation through text message or call.. it cuts off and the person could not be contacted anymore.... I would try to text and text and call and call that person and even try to get the exact location of that person because I need to see for myself if the person or friend is okay.... Reason behind? September 29,2006 I was suppose to meet my "ex-bestfriend" for a coffee time in smallville ...I was still taking my nursing course in IDC back then...Our meeting place was in Mcdonalds west ave. I also called up my other bestfriend because we're just buildings apart from her school so we waited for her there... it was her lunch break so she just accompanied me till "ex-bestfriend" arrives....  I ca

"In your eyes... Lost in your eyes" titles of love songs which are my favorites as well... but what is it in one  person's eyes that makes one fall in love? If we check the exact definition of it.. eyes  are organs that detect light, and convert it to electro-chemical impulses in neurons... accdg. kay wiki... But if you ask me... the eyes of ones persons holds everything... because what we can't say.. that eyes have seen already so we can't keep anything from it ... for example... If a person lies... you can tell by the twitching of their eye... If ones in love with a person you can see the blooming eyes, devious eyes..the ones set to kill or in rage and yes, even models.. you can encounter what they call "smiling with your eyes". It's really interesting ... feelings could be involved with the look of an eye... like the famous term.. "love at first sight" I so love that... I don't even know if that's still applicable for othe

Since I discovered I was to be a rebel child because of all the problems that I encountered in such a young age I was fund of running away from my problems.... The first was when I ran away after me and my mom confronted my father from a certain problem.... I stayed in my friends house for 2 days ..I felt so confused that time that I even brought my birth certificate and all papers needed to get a job and I was to young then...how would I know? my dad left our house the afternoon of the confrontation so I decided to head back home..When I got back he left me a letter apologizing on what he had and almost done towards me and my mom...but the downside is... we never saw him for 7 months after their one on one confrontation... Second was I was fund of being an out of school youth when I first quit college back at 2007... I was nagged by my mother everyday so I decided to leave the house with several clothing only...It lasted for a month and a half... August to September to be exact.

October 26,2009 I was hired as an Agent in a call center company... I was with Wave 25-8 .... we were the best wave of all... there were originally... 200+ agents in wave 25 alone and we were the last group.. but we never settled for the last but always the first place in getting awards and all.... anyway... that's when I met my loud mouth soon to be Best friend...  Demmy Francis.he was wearing his white shirt with red and blue print.. Loud mouth...he never wants to be known.. he was my prospect before because he never admits what he is so It came to a point that I wanted to get him drunk to make use of him...^^ but we ended up best of friends  he's always there to shake me to reality and shout just to realize i've done something wrong...always defends me and always there but not these days because of school and work and that I'm proud of him. we became team mates when we reached the floor under our beloved Boss Lyndon(the only supervisor we I'm considering)....

In the past I was labeled as the Ice Queen..because I was so hurt so deeply....It came to a point that I chose to forget about love...until I met him...I found love ones again... but is he my counter part? That's how I define him...  I never really knew him... until now... what is it with him that makes my knees weak? What does he have against me? a voodoo doll?a love potion? or I was just really struck by cupids arrow... he's not the total package but for me he's perfect... My friend even told me... "i'm warning you... don't love him deeply... coz he's a player.. he'll just hurt you..." and even to the point of saying .." why don'y you try having sex with him..maybe that's just what you wanted?" well that's not my style... and i'm never after sex when i love or like someone... I would wait ..then we can do what we want with each other... He's saying that he can't take care of a puppy...let alone a person...

Usually when you say "i love you" to a person,your friend, partner, family member or new love... you always get random answers...  "i love you..i love you too...i love you?..or i love you too?" Because..you see.. it's never the things you say.. it's how you say it... Being in love for people with personalities like mine is precious..rare... important...But the question still remains.. am I really in love?infatuated? or playing dumb? I point a certain scenario... My first boyfriend ever... I was lonely after a scary feud.. I was at mo2 aquarium then...alone while my friends were dancing elsewhere... he came to me..gave me a pat in the back and said.." hey... are you drunk or being emo?" I'm supposed to look at him with glaring eyes but when my eyes looked at his... I felt connected to him as if there was an electricity connecting his eyes to mine... and we just stared at each other.. unaware that it was 2 mins already and for us... it wa

A friend once told me... "you know what? you have lots of realization friend!It's  because I'm a person who learns new things everyday ... facing different problems and situation everyday makes you learn how to cope up or deal with it... Things happen for a reason so you really have to deal with it no matter how hard it could get...  I'm the kind of person that is always available when a friend is in need... I'd forget my work or whatever i'm doing that is less important just to aid a friend... many people came and went away in my life but i'm still hanging on ... If someone leaves you it does not mean he or she does not care.. it is because both of you needs to grow... Being  in my world is like a jungle... there's always a predator that hides beneath the bushes.. waiting to eat your flesh... but they can't afford to do so because of my friends..they always defend me with or without my presence... I'm a friend oriented person and as bad as