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cold as ice

In the past I was labeled as the Ice Queen..because I was so hurt so deeply....It came to a point that I chose to forget about love...until I met him...I found love ones again... but is he my counter part?

That's how I define him...  I never really knew him... until now... what is it with him that makes my knees weak? What does he have against me? a voodoo doll?a love potion? or I was just really struck by cupids arrow... he's not the total package but for me he's perfect...

My friend even told me... "i'm warning you... don't love him deeply... coz he's a player.. he'll just hurt you..." and even to the point of saying .." why don'y you try having sex with him..maybe that's just what you wanted?" well that's not my style... and i'm never after sex when i love or like someone... I would wait ..then we can do what we want with each other...

He's saying that he can't take care of a puppy...let alone a person... maybe he's just not that ready... traumatic experience?i don't think so... he just made a choice... and he chose to break my heart by saying "i'm not ready" I'm a consistent person... determined... but... I don't know him too well...

What Ifs....

What if there is more than 3? what if there's someone goodlooking? he really likes..and knows him well? would i still continue? for now I guess yes... I'm dead sure of my feelings... and that is I love him....

But i have to admit it's really tempting to grab somebody's ass in the bar and dance like hell then have a one night stand.. but no... I'm not a promiscuous person anymore... and in my age... what im looking for is somebody to love and give care... after all... my profession is a nurse..i want to nurse my partner's needs...

Maybe the right person havn't shown up yet... or he had shown up..I just overlooked it....

Well now..who's the ice queen?



But the label of a certain person comes from a deep reason...the mystery is still not solved... The truth is still out there..I just need to discover it from him and not just listen to hearsay...

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