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Runaway? or Facing new problems?



Since I discovered I was to be a rebel child because of all the problems that I encountered in such a young age I was fund of running away from my problems....

The first was when I ran away after me and my mom confronted my father from a certain problem.... I stayed in my friends house for 2 days ..I felt so confused that time that I even brought my birth certificate and all papers needed to get a job and I was to young then...how would I know? my dad left our house the afternoon of the confrontation so I decided to head back home..When I got back he left me a letter apologizing on what he had and almost done towards me and my mom...but the downside is... we never saw him for 7 months after their one on one confrontation...

Second was I was fund of being an out of school youth when I first quit college back at 2007... I was nagged by my mother everyday so I decided to leave the house with several clothing only...It lasted for a month and a half... August to September to be exact....sleep all day and party all night as they say and I'm proud t say that i've been there and have done all that and even to the point that me and my best friend fought about me staying away from my house for a very long time...my best friend introduced me to his friends and I ended up being with his friends all the time and the closeness grew that sometimes in exclusive parties of their family.. he'd be busy and I'd take his place as a proxy.... We talked it out and he helped me realize that it's better to face my family than running away...because friends might come and go but my family would always stay...so after and month and a half I decided to be in my families roof again...prodigal son part 2^^

Third was the recent... It was because there was a misunderstanding between my mom and me and miscommunication between my father and I.... He asked me to leave the house, supposedly a reverse psychology, but I ended up leaving that was the whole month of September 2010.. I was in a domestic relationship with my ex partner... and at first I thought I'd be okay since were together.. but all hell breaks loose once we fight.... Back at my house I would never go to the kitchen not unless I cook..bake or drink water.. let alone the washing area... but there...I experienced washing the dishes..clothing..and even washing my ex partner!An that.. I never expected I would do for Love.... our last fight while I was under his roof was very crucial... it came to a point of tearing up money...literally! He forced me to leave his house and I decided to apologize to my parents and go back were I really belong... being the boss and being with my family...

Being in those positions and problems was so difficult...and I really thought it's hard..but I've done it already...and i'm still standing tall...

And now this... for how many weeks I've been telling my family and friends that I think I lost my sense of direction in life... when I was 17 I tole my bestfriends that before I turn 23 I'd be successful with a stable job and now I'm 23 I'm still here... in my mother and father's roof ....

Bottom line is... It's really my fault and I can't blame anybody else.... I've got that UK opportunity but let it pass because I was hired at a call center last 2009... got a Canada opportunity but ignored it as well.... now another Canada opportunity and it's supposed to be by August of this year but now I'm having "the second thought" again.... I want to find my old self... The "perky, lovable, hyperactive and confident, strong Von"

Just a few minutes ago before I had thought of sharing this... I received an exclusive email from a sourcing coordinator for a company in Bacolod inviting me to join their company... I have thought of working there before and even the "Even Quenn" is already there and starting his job tomorrow...

I have decided on my own to give it a shot...save money(as if i could)... then while being away... find my lost self again...soul search.... and forget about everything in a few months just before November this year....

In other words I'm letting the Canada opportunity go... I'm really not ready yet... How could I leave my house and family..let alone the country If I'm sure I can't take care of my self yet?!

I'm still very confused for now but what I'm really sure of is...

I'M LEAVING ILOILO... TEMPORARILY...^^

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