Jhianvon's Adventures!

day 2... still tempted.... I honestly miss Facebook.... how would I know my friends current status or dramas? but still being strong and standing by my commitment ... it's very hard... I'm still tempted in checking how he's doing... hearing the "how to save a life" music in the cab earlier... I'm really wishing him all the happiness he deserves... This day at work was quite steamy... this know it all but call center virgin beeyotch was all over our training room..lashing her unethical and "squateric" attitude..it started after the role play for call simulations... they jined our room since our log-ins was not yet modified and we needed to share their logins... one of my teamates gave a grammatical feedback about the ssn vs the last 4 of the socials statement and this girl was going crazy over her reaction.... coming from this unfortunate looking bitch who seems to know it all but can't even fix her own style in life.... I had tp stand up for my...

Day 1…so far so good.. it has been 18 hours since I deactivated my facebook account… being inlove with this person for months had made me decide in doing this because I can’t seem to delete him from my friends list …. Doing this was so difficult since iv’e been feeding myself in facebook since it started… all my friends. Families and even partners are in my facebook account and all those over 400 facebook friends I’m acquainted with … and it’s all my median of communication from all the people iv’e known all throughout the world… One of the reasons why I wanted to deactivate my Facebook account temporarily is because I wanted to isolate myself from all the drama that Facebook has given me and the people around me… Second… I wanted to totally move on from this specific person whom I loved but can’t love me in return…I wasn’t asking much. Just for him to acknowledge that I am loving him. He wanted me to throw away my feelings for him which I didn’t like… call it generically martyr b...

For years Iv'e been searching for the right person..the right partner to be with..I tried everything... signing up in gay social networks...going to bars every night..even showed off my wild dancing just to catch attention... I was too young...naive... on the verge of desperation... The Love vs Infatuation always kicks in ..when I think I found "the right one"...It always ends up to be false alarms..They usually say  "just friends" or "forget me"... Hopeless romantic..that's what I am..I still believe in soul mates and serendipity.. But why am I searching?  Because I was never given proper love and attention growing up.. So when I find that person that my heart chooses.. I'd give all my love and attention... Selfish ain't it? but that's what I want.. I would usually fall for guys which I consider my counter part ... the aspect of yin and yang and all...only 2 persons loved me for who I am and some just fell just fell in love b...

Summer of 2006... The season of IRC chatters... I had the weirdest thought that I would find the perfect partner in chatrooms like these... G4m was also very hot that year... (well I'm just saying that because that's the year I started chatting online^^) Anyway... I had this chat mate named "bratie" in one of the chatrooms and the usual .. we traded G4m accounts.. he asked for my stats and number and ofcourse...Friendster... We texted a lot even traded MMS several times... then April 21,2006 he made a text brigade for a grand EB with all his friends and text/chat mates at mo2 aquarium 9pm...  Everybody's there..the hot and the not was there but "bratie" he never cared..just as long as he makes lots of friends ... he's the kind of person that would not judge based on physical looks... And well it took us several months before the "close friend" declaration happened...  On that night.. I also met my all time crush... "dotty" he...

Nowadays...beauty is still  defined as skin deep by many shallow individuals... call me old fashioned but for me the essence of being beautiful counts through each individuals attitude or personality... I will only consider you beautiful if you treat others well...I'll never care if your pretty or handsome just as long as you know how to handle yourself in a certain scenario... Just like in beauty pageants ... the biggest points that you can earn is in the Q & A...If your answer includes the famous "world peace" there's always a chance of winning the crown... For years I have encountered different kinds of attitudes from friends and family and even partners..I'll be stating three experiences on what true beauty means...  I had this Girl best friend since kindergarten ...shes a pretty girl... always the apple of the eye of boys and teachers... shes almost perfect...but knowing her for 11 years...shes nothing without that pretty face... I always cover...