I will only consider you beautiful if you treat others well...I'll never care if your pretty or handsome just as long as you know how to handle yourself in a certain scenario...
Just like in beauty pageants ... the biggest points that you can earn is in the Q & A...If your answer includes the famous "world peace" there's always a chance of winning the crown...
For years I have encountered different kinds of attitudes from friends and family and even partners..I'll be stating three experiences on what true beauty means...
I had this Girl best friend since kindergarten ...shes a pretty girl... always the apple of the eye of boys and teachers... shes almost perfect...but knowing her for 11 years...shes nothing without that pretty face... I always cover up her bad or as I would consider.."demonic attitudes" at the age of 9 if she doesn't like a person...regardless if the person is ugly or not...If she says that she doesn't like that person..oh boy...she really means it... she would secretly throw away that persons projects..notebooks and books...and when she sees that persons face after she does that bad deed..she just laughs her ass out loud... and this was elementary days... highschool that worst thing that she did to a person was destroy/break up lovers it was her hobby that time... I remembered one time..she saw the picture of my classmate in my phone... she deleted it without my consent and said... "I'll make sure that by the end of this month...this flirt is gonna cry once I break her and her boyfriend up" That was the first time I heard her say such a plot...so I disregarded it and since I was a great best friend.. I tend to overlook those bad habits and would still defend her no matter what.. but It came to a point when her plot was done... I was friends with my classmate and she had an idea of why her boyfriend broke up with her... she came up to me lunch break.. crying.."von..your bestfriend won..." It struck my like lightning..."how could she?!" but still I tend to overlook so I denied and lied that I knew something and defended her that she couldn't d such a thing...since elementary and HS gossips about her leaked and I always defended her and even came to a point that I would do her dirty work for her... College came... we still had the same school and course..we both had the power to manipulate people and power over the school because of the influence of our family but I chose to enter college the normal way... and guess what.. she did it again...the interview room in the college of nursing was our meeting place and since she was bored while we were waiting for her mom... she looks at the applicants papers and picks the person she doesn't like in the waiting list... I tried to analyze things after that...And I realized... I'd rather stop seeing her and treating her as my bestfriend from now on... If I could not tame her anymore because she's like a loose cannon when she unleashes her bad habits... No one can..even her parents ..so I'd rather stay away from her...our friendship was 1994 to 2006 only...But I'm still proud to have had her in my life because despite of what she had done with certain people and even me... we had our good times..
My first boyfriend which I never consider once I tell my stories about past loves is one good example too...I was so fat then..that was 2004 ... this guy showed my sweetness...kindness but only lasted for 2 months.... behind that angelic face..lies that spawn of satan attitude...I never expected it because I never knew him as a person capable of inflicting hurt and let alone pain... Yeah we also had our good times... but since he was my first boyfriend ever.. even though he would physically hurt and humiliate me in public..my knees would still weaken when he kisses me and apologized..there was something in him that I was sure..can still be changed..after all... that's not the person who sweet talked me for months then all of a sudden he shows his true colors...I am the person that does not just give a 2nd chance..it will always reach to the 6th chance and after that.. your out... It came to a point that I said NO already... even though that we ended our relationship because he traded me in for a fatter ugly person I was proud that I was the one who have broken up with him first...Atleast that I deserve and have the right to do...
And lastly... the best example of true beauty is ofcourse no other than me?^^ For years I had searched for the right partner for me..the one that would love me more than I love them... but it's always not what you wanted it to be.. It's always the other way around... That's why my bestfriends labeled me as a "caregiver" just one call...just a sweet talk I would dive the great barrier reef for love... I'm a really big person with a very big heart...That's why people tend to take advantage of my kindness...My kindness would cover: being hit,slapped,smothered,humiliated..say it and I've experienced it all just for the sake of keeping the relationship.. I would do everything just to keep it... Love knows no boundaries and even though your hurt ... you wouldn't give up on that person because what I'm always telling myself is.. "maybe I could change him" well sometimes it works but most of the time people just needs to change themselves on their own...It maybe too melodramatic but it's very true....
True beauty can always be discovered through observations...but if you don't have the skill to observe well... we can always consider it as "charge to experience"^^
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