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A month of no Facebook or any other social networking sites: day 1



Day 1…so far so good.. it has been 18 hours since I deactivated my facebook account… being inlove with this person for months had made me decide in doing this because I can’t seem to delete him from my friends list ….

Doing this was so difficult since iv’e been feeding myself in facebook since it started… all my friends. Families and even partners are in my facebook account and all those over 400 facebook friends I’m acquainted with … and it’s all my median of communication from all the people iv’e known all throughout the world…

One of the reasons why I wanted to deactivate my Facebook account temporarily is because I wanted to isolate myself from all the drama that Facebook has given me and the people around me…

Second… I wanted to totally move on from this specific person whom I loved but can’t love me in return…I wasn’t asking much. Just for him to acknowledge that I am loving him. He wanted me to throw away my feelings for him which I didn’t like… call it generically martyr but I wanted to love him without asking his love in return…. But I’ve come to a drastic decision of trying to let go…. I even placed him on my iBlacklist application to not even try to texting him from time to time… and now this … but still no effect… remembering his voice, shriek, his eyes and eyebrows and the way he smells… I still get weak …and even at a glance of his picture… 1 more drastic thing to move on that I’m not ready doing yet is removing all his pictures in my laptop and phone… I mean... That’s the only thing that I have from him… memories of having a good time with him… I still do love him…

Social isolation… to gain emotional relief… to be emotionally stabled … that’s my goal…

Diverting my attention by meeting new friends and focusing on my job is quite effective for now… It’s not yet sinking in thoroughly but I’m getting there…






this is the last thing I'll be dedicating for him...^^








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