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Hell hath no fury..




July 4, 2007, Outside of US Embassy, I was waiting for my friend to finish her interview. When a guy passed by and said “HI.. is this seat taken?”. That’s where it all started... Everybody called him LL. 6’5”... gym built.. chinito... and filthy rich.. but most of all.. He loved and accepted me.

On our 3rd month, we decided to keep a child. Got an irresponsible girl to bear a child for money and he had the child with my second named legalized.

July 4, 2008..He gave a promise on our first year as couples, a condo unit for boh of u to live-in in th future. I never really needed it but feeling so secured and sustained was excruciating.

But after our first year, He became more obsessed and possessive towards me. We fought ones or twice a week. And there was even an incident that he punched my stomach while we were at a mall because I saw a celebrity that was sittng on a bench because of his jealousy.

When we're fighting and I wouldn’t answer his calls. He’d send his best friend lance to comfort me, not knowng that this person had a thing for me too, which I fell infatuated as well, but it ended in a short time, I didn’t ant to ruin their friendship for 20 years.

Years have passed and several break ups. I came to a point that I neded change, people came and gone between those years, but one person stood out and had me decided to end everything with LL. Finally broke up with him and fell deeply (stupidly) in love without further expectations with that person. (no futher stories with this person since it’s closed and off topic already.)

October 12, 2011, he was able to give his promise years ago, a condo unit in manila plus more, The condo unit was under my name and he had inserted  line or something in the contract that it's nontransferable. It took us weeks to fix it and finally came up of something, we had the agreement retracted and added his name, some kind of conjugal property that one can't sell something without the other one signing. It was too late, I was madly in love with another person already, I had to let got to let go of the relationship because I didn't want to be unfair.Before I left his place October 23, 2011, I bid goodbye to our son and signed the papers for him to sell or use So even without assurance on the love that came to be, I gambled, and got hurt but now I shook up the illusion and got myself back to reality.

It’s been a year since we broke up and clossed off the relationship, I’m back in manila. He was quite okay and have moved on as what he said and wanted us to talk and do a closure part 2.. As stupid as it may sound. I agreed since we had a lot of things to discuss, including hi not letting me see our supposedly kid without him going.

The talk went well and I realized that with all the loving I was getting how could I let this person go fo someone who doesn’t even want to acknowledge your felings?



But nahh... It was just a short realization, I am loved.. By a lot of people that are ready to love and accept me for who I am. After all, I’m not just an option to talk to If you have nobdy to talk or to be with.



I’m a very simple person.... I just want to give my love, care and attention to someone worthy. I may not be able to offer good looks but hey.. wehre else canyou find someone like me in this day and age.
Currently I have declared myself and my heart.. SINGLE... My heart deserves a break from all this drama and the people that does not deserve my love. This line may sound bitter, well I am.. and I’m hurt.. but have moved on and accepted the fact that there will never be US.



This post is about my bitterness from the people I loved and cared for...

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