Acceptance..

Let me start by announcing that It’s been awhile since I blogged, and thank you to the people that have reminded me...lol

Moving on is like the 5 stages of grief. Nobody can ever explain what grief really is but According to Kubler-Ross we have 5 identified stages,

Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Aceptance.

Denial: “I know there’s hope.. I’ve seen signs that he likes me too”. As pathetic as it may sound.. I have once said that line... It’s just plain stupidity that someone would hope and even pray for a person to love them back. There might be obvious reasons but we must also put into mind that a confirmation should be given and most of all, be verbalized.

Anger: “I don’t want to talk nor see him anymore!”. Getting angry with that person would never solve your problem of letting go. You might be angry for hours or days but eventually you’ll forget about your anger and continue with the foolish love again. People never learn, they say or promise something but tends to break it themselves, part of human nature I guess. Whatever we do, love over powers anger.

Bargaining: “ I promise I will be the best partner.. If only we’re in a relationship”. I call this the wishful thinking.. or for the lack of terms.. ASA! Having someone love you back is not a thrift store that you can just ask for a discount.. We have to build a strong relationship firt before we even head off to something intense. Hey! It might just be “just sex”.lol

Depression: “I’m ugly.. nobody wants me to be their partner”. Self pity.. the most pathetic of all statements I have ever said. If the person doesn’t like you or give the love or care back, it does not mean you’re worthless! You might even be better than him because you had the courage to admit that you do love him. There’s literally a lot of fish in the ocean. Yes, their swimming but at the same time enticing or luring you to catch them. “dalagang pilipina” is no longer in.

Acceptance: If you had run over and understood how you would normally do for  stage 1-4 of grieving, by now, you have realized that you are back to reality and out from stupidity and foolishness. You were just plainly stubborn and not getting and knoing the obvious fact that you can never be together. It just won’t happen. Yeah the person might be kind or nice or truly lovable. But have you assesed If he had acted this way with other people as well? If a person treats you like a nobody today and treats you like a close friend the next day then definitely thee’s nothing wrong with you. If you’ve learn to succesfully accept the fact of your defeat. Then you’re treated!

The seret in moving on is not about “crying over spilled milk” allas, you have to face the problem (Even f it’s your face.lol), face the music whatever genre it is. We don’t run away and asume that we can just forget our feelings. We have to learn the art of letting go by getting hurt to the highest level in order for us to wake up.

I thought being in this trip was worthless. But It taught me a valuable leson. That I had to face who I had to face to remember how insignificant my feelings are.

Being in love can test ones patience and humility. “how long am I gonna continue this insanity?” “when could you love me back?”. Some of the familiar questions you could have asked when you’re in that stage that you’re madly in love with somebody, Your heart beats fast when you hear hs name or even just when your heart detects his presence, sounds theatrical but when you’re in love it eally does happen. In accordance to this blog is the “bitter-sweet symphony” that I exprienced for over a year..

I’m glad to say that after over a year of being head over heels, I have been treated, reborn and most of all, found the happiness that I know I truly deserve. My world revolved to much around you, but now, After I shook the illusion that you have casted on me. I found out that there’s a lot of people willing to love me, rather than me, asking them to love me back.

“I do agree that acceptance is probably the last emotion felt, and in some instances it may be the only one.”