Jhianvon's Adventures!

day 5...I just cant take it anymore! my friends wants me to bring back my facebook and so do I...I miss facebook and mhy friends that can only be communicated through facebook... I'll be reactivating my facebook today but will be less visible coz I still want to take care of my blog.. fans or none^^ but you have to agree..especially for people who knows me too well... it's like a miracle that I survived not having facebook or twitter for 5 straight days!^^

4th day...   still craving for facebook but less for the reason why I deactivated it...been on a 2 straight night out with my new found friends... love it! I have to be honest.. I haven't forgotten him yet.. but I'm proud to so ..I don't love him anymore...theirs just simple things that makes me remember him..like his scent.. the songs he sang... but enough about him... how the hell could I move on If even in y blog it's still all about him... so let me tell you a story about this new gay guy..hahahah first so him... in the pantry..his cute firm ass and eyes... he's really not that good looking but I'm just really in to loud mouths...anyway... I find him cute ..at first I was just observing him...  when he's at training... it's all about him... some found him irritating.. but for me I enjoyed seeing him doing his what he does best... being perky...  before we had our girls night out last Thursday ..we were together in the van and he was all over the ...

I'll be keeping this short coz ..I still have hang over^^ start of day... poverty...just the day before salary... BDO..I always find ways^^ prorates...nosebleed went out with the girls... go mart...emperador and coke... mo2 ice... 2 adios mother fucker... super dance^^ grabbed a dick... fed the ducks... went home.. day ended with more feeding of the ducks^^ hang over!!^^

day 2... still tempted.... I honestly miss Facebook.... how would I know my friends current status or dramas? but still being strong and standing by my commitment ... it's very hard... I'm still tempted in checking how he's doing... hearing the "how to save a life" music in the cab earlier... I'm really wishing him all the happiness he deserves... This day at work was quite steamy... this know it all but call center virgin beeyotch was all over our training room..lashing her unethical and "squateric" attitude..it started after the role play for call simulations... they jined our room since our log-ins was not yet modified and we needed to share their logins... one of my teamates gave a grammatical feedback about the ssn vs the last 4 of the socials statement and this girl was going crazy over her reaction.... coming from this unfortunate looking bitch who seems to know it all but can't even fix her own style in life.... I had tp stand up for my...

Day 1…so far so good.. it has been 18 hours since I deactivated my facebook account… being inlove with this person for months had made me decide in doing this because I can’t seem to delete him from my friends list …. Doing this was so difficult since iv’e been feeding myself in facebook since it started… all my friends. Families and even partners are in my facebook account and all those over 400 facebook friends I’m acquainted with … and it’s all my median of communication from all the people iv’e known all throughout the world… One of the reasons why I wanted to deactivate my Facebook account temporarily is because I wanted to isolate myself from all the drama that Facebook has given me and the people around me… Second… I wanted to totally move on from this specific person whom I loved but can’t love me in return…I wasn’t asking much. Just for him to acknowledge that I am loving him. He wanted me to throw away my feelings for him which I didn’t like… call it generically martyr b...

For years Iv'e been searching for the right person..the right partner to be with..I tried everything... signing up in gay social networks...going to bars every night..even showed off my wild dancing just to catch attention... I was too young...naive... on the verge of desperation... The Love vs Infatuation always kicks in ..when I think I found "the right one"...It always ends up to be false alarms..They usually say  "just friends" or "forget me"... Hopeless romantic..that's what I am..I still believe in soul mates and serendipity.. But why am I searching?  Because I was never given proper love and attention growing up.. So when I find that person that my heart chooses.. I'd give all my love and attention... Selfish ain't it? but that's what I want.. I would usually fall for guys which I consider my counter part ... the aspect of yin and yang and all...only 2 persons loved me for who I am and some just fell just fell in love b...

Summer of 2006... The season of IRC chatters... I had the weirdest thought that I would find the perfect partner in chatrooms like these... G4m was also very hot that year... (well I'm just saying that because that's the year I started chatting online^^) Anyway... I had this chat mate named "bratie" in one of the chatrooms and the usual .. we traded G4m accounts.. he asked for my stats and number and ofcourse...Friendster... We texted a lot even traded MMS several times... then April 21,2006 he made a text brigade for a grand EB with all his friends and text/chat mates at mo2 aquarium 9pm...  Everybody's there..the hot and the not was there but "bratie" he never cared..just as long as he makes lots of friends ... he's the kind of person that would not judge based on physical looks... And well it took us several months before the "close friend" declaration happened...  On that night.. I also met my all time crush... "dotty" he...