Jhianvon's Adventures!

I was granted a vacation because of my Ill grandfather. Away from the stress and heartaches that I was experiencing. Went home with a huge smile on my face because I missed my parents, family and friends as well as my very big bed. This vacation was actually part realization of what I really wanted to happen to my life and career. My conviction was tested these past few weeks (Actually when I started working in manila). My patience was never tested to it's actual threshold to the point that for the first time, I broke down in front of a class because of the stress that they have given me. Stressed from escalations, workload and heartache. I couldn't joggle all at the same time, I had to sacrifice one of them.  I choose to forget being in love, ito lang naman ang walang patutunguhan. Tama ang mga mentors ko.. "walang love life ang mga trainer". ( well, that saying can be changed if someone would be brave enough to.. never mind.lol)  Love can be bot...

July 4, 2007, Outside of US Embassy, I was waiting for my friend to finish her interview. When a guy passed by and said “HI.. is this seat taken?”. That’s where it all started... Everybody called him LL. 6’5”... gym built.. chinito... and filthy rich.. but most of all.. He loved and accepted me. On our 3rd month, we decided to keep a child. Got an irresponsible girl to bear a child for money and he had the child with my second named legalized. July 4, 2008..He gave a promise on our first year as couples, a condo unit for boh of u to live-in in th future. I never really needed it but feeling so secured and sustained was excruciating. But after our first year, He became more obsessed and possessive towards me. We fought ones or twice a week. And there was even an incident that he punched my stomach while we were at a mall because I saw a celebrity that was sittng on a bench because of his jealousy. When we're fighting and I wouldn’t answer his calls. He’...

Let me start by announcing that It’s been awhile since I blogged, and thank you to the people that have reminded me...lol Moving on is like the 5 stages of grief. Nobody can ever explain what grief really is but According to Kubler-Ross we have 5 identified stages, Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Aceptance . Denial: “I know there’s hope.. I’ve seen signs that he likes me too”. As pathetic as it may sound.. I have once said that line... It’s just plain stupidity that someone would hope and even pray for a person to love them back. There might be obvious reasons but we must also put into mind that a confirmation should be given and most of all, be verbalized. Anger: “I don’t want to talk nor see him anymore!”. Getting angry with that person would never solve your problem of letting go. You might be angry for hours or days but eventually you’ll forget about your anger and continue with the foolish love again. People never learn, they say...

day 5...I just cant take it anymore! my friends wants me to bring back my facebook and so do I...I miss facebook and mhy friends that can only be communicated through facebook... I'll be reactivating my facebook today but will be less visible coz I still want to take care of my blog.. fans or none^^ but you have to agree..especially for people who knows me too well... it's like a miracle that I survived not having facebook or twitter for 5 straight days!^^

4th day...   still craving for facebook but less for the reason why I deactivated it...been on a 2 straight night out with my new found friends... love it! I have to be honest.. I haven't forgotten him yet.. but I'm proud to so ..I don't love him anymore...theirs just simple things that makes me remember him..like his scent.. the songs he sang... but enough about him... how the hell could I move on If even in y blog it's still all about him... so let me tell you a story about this new gay guy..hahahah first so him... in the pantry..his cute firm ass and eyes... he's really not that good looking but I'm just really in to loud mouths...anyway... I find him cute ..at first I was just observing him...  when he's at training... it's all about him... some found him irritating.. but for me I enjoyed seeing him doing his what he does best... being perky...  before we had our girls night out last Thursday ..we were together in the van and he was all over the ...

I'll be keeping this short coz ..I still have hang over^^ start of day... poverty...just the day before salary... BDO..I always find ways^^ prorates...nosebleed went out with the girls... go mart...emperador and coke... mo2 ice... 2 adios mother fucker... super dance^^ grabbed a dick... fed the ducks... went home.. day ended with more feeding of the ducks^^ hang over!!^^

day 2... still tempted.... I honestly miss Facebook.... how would I know my friends current status or dramas? but still being strong and standing by my commitment ... it's very hard... I'm still tempted in checking how he's doing... hearing the "how to save a life" music in the cab earlier... I'm really wishing him all the happiness he deserves... This day at work was quite steamy... this know it all but call center virgin beeyotch was all over our training room..lashing her unethical and "squateric" attitude..it started after the role play for call simulations... they jined our room since our log-ins was not yet modified and we needed to share their logins... one of my teamates gave a grammatical feedback about the ssn vs the last 4 of the socials statement and this girl was going crazy over her reaction.... coming from this unfortunate looking bitch who seems to know it all but can't even fix her own style in life.... I had tp stand up for my...